ni hao

I'm chugging away full steam ahead on my 6-credits-in-one-month intensive Mandarin course for the summer. I'm not sure if I should shoot myself, since we didn't hit the meat of the course content yet, but I'm enjoying it so far.

This post is only going to be a short vent. A goals post is coming up soon - it's kinda late right now and I'm getting sleepy.

First off, I'll mention a failure I went through. I went for an interview at some corporation. I went home. I sat by my computer for days. I worried. Then I got a call that they gave the job to somebody else.

Now, my job hunting experience is hardly extensive. I've worked here and there, volunteered a bit, but never worked what would be considered a 'real' job. This could've been my first - sitting at an office dressed slightly fancier than usual plugging away at a computer making $15 an hour. My friend who worked there said that it bored him out of his mind, but I don't care about that right now. This job could've helped me pay off a full years worth of tuition and more. Damn, it hurts thinking about it.

I guess the only positive thing that came out of this experience was that the HR rep decided to call me to inform me of the decision, even though she was e-mailing all the other candidates their rejections. As I looked sad on the phone, she said that I did ace the interview, and that she wouldn't have me change anything on that. But someone else had SQL experience, and although it was not required to apply for the position, it was definitely an asset. She told me that she'd keep my application on the file and consider me for any upcoming positions. At least it softened the blow.

Now what? Now I gotta spend some $1600 on my summer courses.

:(

On the side, I've been practicing Android app development. There are a hell of a lot of things to remember when setting up an app, but things seem to be simple enough once the basic framework is set up and you understand the flow of things, from XML layouts to the Android manifest to the Activity classes. The only thing I'm stuck on right now is with the illustrations. I've had Paint.NET open for a day now, and I've been struggling to figure out how to draw a colored circle out of all things. My sister laughed at my incompetence with digital art (she just finished up her Art AP submission).

Well, I'm going to play a round of Dota 2 now, and go to sleep. Another post coming soon.

mid-life crisis

I don't know if I can call this a mid-life crisis. I'm not even 20 yet, but heck, I can't think of another term for it.

I don't really feel like typing out the specifics, other then that I am questioning a lot of things about my life, not not feeling too good about them. It's definitely preventing my short summer break from being the cheerful one I was expecting. Not being able to land 2 jobs that I got interviewed for was probably a catalyst for this, but it has existed in my head for a while now.

I think I'll sit at my table for the next few days and just think this through.




:(